Life.........is weak

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 11:02:21 GMT

Today I think is the darkest day in my life. My dad that is so dear to me has pass away.

The last time I see him physically alive was when he was about to be sent to the hospital this morning. That time, he was still quite allright. But after that, he called home from the hospital and I answered the call. That was the last time I hear him speak. I asked him to pass the phone to the nurse so that I can find out more about his condition. But the nurse refused to tell me. So I decided to make a trip down to the hospital. I communicated with my sisters along the way and my eldest sister decided to join me. So once I reach the hospital, I was told that my dad had a heart attack by the doctors at the A&E and they are suggesting a balloon operation to open up his blood vessles. So I was told to find the doctor from the cardiag department. My sister joined me at this time and so we went up together.

When we went up, we met the doctor and he told us that dad has left us. My sis broke down. I was keeping my emotion in control. My dad's heart attack was too serious and resucitation procedure failed to bring him back. My mind went blank. So I called my Mom and my 2nd sister to break the news to them.

When I saw my dad's body, emotions took control. I broke down as well. Even though I may hate my dad at times because he sometimes do things that hurt the family and mom especially. But he is still my dad and I love him. I want him to see me dress in my acad gown, get married and even carry my child next time. But he won't live to see that day.

Before I leave the hospital, I kiss my dad's body on the forehead. It was cold. But that is the last time I can really feel my dad.

It's dad's birthday tomolo. Dad-Happy birthday, I love u. I hope u will have a better Life with god above. Lord. I hand my dad into your hands. Amen.

My Spiritual life

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 17:37:07 GMT

Well, last week I went to my friend's church musical as she invited me to attend it. It's called 2 exits. It is about a young man called Hip who make decisions in his life as he grow up from his teenage days to adulthood. Since young, hip always choose the door to his desires and his wants. But his sister has been asking him to choose the door to eternal life...Jesus Christ.. Hip's sister talk a lot to hip to make Hip know more about Jesus christ and eventually even lost the ability to walk when she was trying to stop hip from doing something illegal. When Hip grow up and step into the society, he work hard and he aim to fly high. He also have a good love relationship with a girl. But all of a sudden, his world come crushing down. When he was expecting news of a promotion, he was retreched. When he thought his girlfriend will still love him as much as he love her, she dumped him for another guy who can afford to buy her rich goods. Eventually, he think back and realised that he should go into the door of eternity..

Touching storyline right? When I was looking at this musical, I was thinking about it. This musical really make me think about my relationship with god. Sometimes I am just like Hip. Choosing the door to my desires and wants. This musical reminds me that I should be choosing god in my life.

Although I am a christian before I attend the musical, I have been missing church for a long time and I do not have a steady relationship with god. After watching the musical, I decided to resume this relationship I have with god and the first step is to attend church again.

So few hours ago, I attended church and we play this game called the island. The game is about creating an island that we think is ideal. The game's message is to tell us that god creates us not by chance. When we create the island, we create things with a purpose. Just like when god create us. He creates us with a purpose. He wants us to trust and obey him. I enjoyed myself during the session and I have taken home the message.

Before the session, I actally met one of the brother, Kelvin, who I spoke to at the musical last week. He share with me about quiet time and assurance of salvation. We discuss about these and he also take the chance to know more about me. I thank god for a brother like kelvin and for the time we have together.

After the church session, I went to collect my uniform that I have sent to get my new rank sewn on. Later, I will be packing my stuff to bring back to camp and this time, my bible will be going with me.

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Life.........is weak

My Spiritual life

Alan's Space　伟伦的家: Spiritual